No, not like that when you’re “not near” crap or when you-don’t-talk-to-me kind of way. It says what it says. I miss you. The person you were to me and how everything is changed because of circumstances and situations and it’s not the same. It’s not fair knowing that if I was walking around the streets, and I’d see you, we’d be complete strangers to each other. Conversations won’t be the same because they don’t really exist anymore.
TODAY’S THEME: TWIN DAY! I loved my twins, they’re the best people in the world. ♥ It’s just too bad that we didn’t get the chance to take a group picture.
Period 1: Almost an hour long lecture about Spain’s history. I WAS REALLY HOPING SOMEONE WOULD SHOOT ME!
Period 2: My new seat in that class makes me feel like time goes faster. Weird.. but I’m not gonna question it’s power! :) Took a 5 minute quiz, easiest thing on the planet.
Period 3: Did corrections for my ecology test, got 18 wrong. :( I can’t tell if 52/70 is bad. But my teacher is gonna redo the grading so hopefully my grade goes up!
Period 4: Continued the Holocaust discussion and saw so many dead bodies.. It was so disgusting and inhumane.
LUNCH: Didn’t get to watch Freshmen Say What since I had to work for FBLA. :( A friend told me they were good, but another told me they sucked. *I just watched a video and I have to say there were good but they weren’t bad either. :P I STILL LIKE C/O 13 BETTER!
Period 5: FINALLY finished the French Revolution video. It bored me to tears. I prefer lecture over video, ANY DAY!
Period 6: Did bleachers and ran the track. I didn’t put any effort into doing it so I did whatever.
Tomorrow’s Wacky Day and I’m still debating if I want to do it or not. It’s going to be rainy and cold. And, WHAT IF I NEED TO PEE!? SO MANY FREAKIN’ LAYERS OMGGGGG.
I’ve finally come to the realization that you’re just not worth it anymore. I’m done waiting for something that’s never going to happen. I’m done wishing and wanting for us to be friends again. You clearly don’t want anything to do with me. And, you know what? I’m fine with that. I’ve learned my lesson and it’s time I move on. So, I hope you have a nice life because I know I finally will.
Thank you @turtletroop (: It did make me feel better. Bruno Mars speaks it all <3
“I’ve been working hard so long, seems like pain has been my only friend. My fragile heart has been done so wrong, I wondered if I’d ever heal again. Just like all the seasons, never stayed the same, all around me I can feel it change. I will, break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me, today my life begins. A whole new world is waiting, it’s mine for the taking, I know I can make it, today my life begins…”
“It’s a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier, happier life. As children, we’re told to smile, be cheerful and put on a happy face. As adults we’re told to look on the bright side, make lemonade and see glasses half full. Sometimes reality can get in our way of the ability to act the happy part though. Your health can fail, boyfriends can cheat, friends can disappoint. It’s in these moments when you just want to get real, drop the act and be your true, scared, unhappy self.”—(via livingthroughdreams)
“The bottom line is, life is about learning, whether you’re in school or not. We are human. We make mistakes. But your lowest moment might also be the one where you begin to rise, and rise. So double back. Regroup. Brush yourself off, and try again.”—Sarah Dessen (by withoutyouimnothing)
I wish jealousy & insecurities never existed. The feeling of not being good enough but being told you are is something to doubt but yet something to believe. It’s something to doubt bc you think you feel it. But being told you are good enough is something to believe bc he said it. Then again you rethink, “yeah he’s right. Maybe I am good enough. He’s been with me all along. No one else, just me.”