I wish I never gave up on learning the violin. I wish I never gave up dancing. I wish I never gave up art school. The list could go on and on. I just wish I never gave up. I regret wasting my mom’s money on all the things she wished I could’ve done. I realized that I was a coward back then. I gave up because when things got tough, I didn’t want to continue knowing that I could fail. I didn’t want to fail so I stopped halfway before I disappointed anyone. Now that I’m older, I always look at all the talented people with such envy because that could’ve been me. I just hope that one day, I’ll be able to find the time to continue what I used to love doing.
If you were to tell me a secret, I’ll probably forget. I don’t know if that should be good thing or not since it can be interpreted in different ways. Good: You don’t have to worry about me spilling your secret. Bad: You think I don’t care which is not true! I used to have such good memory, what happened!?!? :’(
Some people have no fucking common sense nowadays. You say you’re not a whore yet you’re exploiting yourself in a sexual manner. You say you’re not a player but you’re telling all of these girls that they’re the one. If you don’t want people talking shit about you, have some common sense and use your fucking head.
Something hit me today. When you leave your teenage years behind and begin that new chapter of your life, you’re not gonna remember the nights you got a full 8 to 10 hours of sleep. You’re gonna remember those times where you felt like nothing fucking mattered, and you were having the time of your…
But I want you to understand that it’s my decision if I wanted to experiment. I know my limits, I’m not one of those people who have no self-control whatsoever. Though at the same time, I’m happy that you care. It means a lot to me, just refrain from using double standards. :)
I’m always so discouraged when we talk to each other because you don’t give me enough attention. You reply hours later, maybe a few mins after if I’m lucky. I always hesitate to text you since I know the conversation doesn’t last long. But I try anyways, low-key hoping that this time would be different.
I fucking hate it at the same time. Why? Because they don’t show the same amount of effort in trying to catch up. I’m sorry that the conversation is “bland.” Maybe if you considered the fact that we haven’t talked in a while, you would at least try to lighten things up and contribute to the conversation.
On Facebook, the way you stop replying to someone is you either 1. Don’t comment back or 2. Like their comment. And yet, some people are still so persistent to continue the conversation. Bitch, can you not tell that I don’t want to talk to you anymore? LOL
One thing that really annoys me about people is when they say they need a significant other. How the fuck is having a significant other going to make your life any better? You’re going to have to deal with more shit because a relationship isn’t a walk in the park. You only want one because you’re lonely. Honestly, if you weren’t being a sad sack of shit and go out with your friends/family, you wouldn’t feel lonely. Don’t be way in over your head and start thinking you need someone else to make you happy.
I had this idea of calling my dad to wish him a Happy Father’s Day. I thought about it and realized that I didn’t have the courage to do so. I was scared that I would break down in tears. I definitely didn’t want him to hear me cry over the phone. So I’m going to do what I always do. I’m just going to keep telling myself that if I didn’t need him before, then I sure as hell don’t need him now.